Cadence's GREAT Decision!!

On Friday, December 4th, my "almost" 6 year old, Cadence, accepted Christ! Her older sister has been a Christian for about a year and a half and we've talked about it a lot, but she just never had any interest of doing anything "right now". I never pushed her because each one of us has to come to that point when we are ready. We went shopping at Lifeway on Friday night and purchased a "Happy Birthday Jesus" packet to donate to a local hospital. In the car, Cadence was asking, "What can you possibly give Jesus?" So I told her the most important thing we can give Him is our life in asking Him to be our Lord and Savior. So after dinner with more discussion, she and I went into her room and we went through the bible and talked about what God gave, what Jesus went through so we could have salvation and what we need to do to accept it. She prayed the prayer and asked Jesus into her heart! I am SO BLESSED to know that both of my baby girls and my step-son have all accepted Christ and have security in eternal salvation! There is no greater joy!!! Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas!

Miss writing and scared of October

I used to write in here often but I haven't so much lately. Going back through some of my posts I realized I miss it. Yeah, miss sharing my life and intimate details with sometimes unknown strangers. LOL. Scary as it is, I find it ALMOST as therapeutic as baking. I also realized something else today. I think I am afraid of October. I had kind-of an odd weekend. You know how sometimes you just get this feeling of dread, like something bad is going to happen? Well I had one of those feelings this past weekend and couldn't really shake it. I tried to explain to my husband the best that I could but I didn't quite get it until this morning. And then it hit me...it's October. I am afraid of October. Why? As my husband pointed out, sometimes things "trigger" thoughts. It can happen with smells or sounds. For example, to this very day, when I smell White Rain hairspray, I hear "It's Tricky" by Run DMC - I DID mention I am an 80s girl, right? Anyway, just going through my life, I have had a lot of big changes happen in October. Not all bad, some - like getting to know my husband, and participating in Judgement House - were very positive. But others, negative or just "change my whole world" kind of changes. So with that in mind, I am trying to stay positive. I mean, things are going great for me. I am married to the most wonderful man in the world and our love is "love through imperfections" - which is a perfect kind of love, and my children are healthy and happy. So I just have to focus on the fact that if anything changes in October, it will be something positive. Hopefully we will make it to Halloween with the biggest conflict being 2 Hannah Montanas trying to trick or treat at the same time. The girls go through phases but Hannah seems to be dominating these days. Anyway, now that I've expressed my crazy fear of October, as I imagined...I feel much better getting it out there - into the unknown territory of...(eeek eeek eeek)...the internet....(insert Halloween evil laugh here)....

I wish you all a great October!

Where did you go?

If you wonder what happened to me, well, I've been MIA on the blog for a while, and BOY has my life changed since I last wrote! In a nutshell, God worked miracle upon miracle to change my life. I am now married to the most wonderful man, ya know, the one I wrote about in an earlier blog, and the girls and I moved to Texas in March. Yes, this coming from the girl who couldn't even say the word marriage a year earlier without wanting to vomit...I've come a long way, Baby! The girls are visiting family back in Kentucky for the summer and I miss them so much I can barely stand it, but all things considered, we are all doing great. I am coming in to KY to see them this weekend and I'm very excited about that. Adam and I found a pretty good church here in our little town of North Richland Hills, just outside of Ft. Worth. It's not Porter, but it's a good group of people. Teachers who teach marriage enrichment and Godly child rearing, and a pastor who completely says it like it is, no matter who gets offended. Amen to that! Reminds me of Pastor Henard in that respect. And bless them both for sticking to the word of God and not sugar-coating sermons to keep their numbers up. Amen again! That's the way it ought to be! Anyway, I just wanted to post a little update about all my big changes. They happened so fast in a whirlwind of events, it just blew me away. But I can say that only God could have orchestrated all the things that had to happen in order to make our move to TX possible, and I know I am continually wowed and amazed at His love for me. HE IS GOOD!

If I were normal...

I want to make a t-shirt that says, "If I were normal, you'd be bored." 2008 has been tough for me, I have to admit. But as I look around, I know several folks who have also had quite a year. Some things have been out of my control, some have been a consequence of my quirky and very flawed personality, but I am who I am. I try to do the right thing, and I try to do what I would expect from someone else. I try to be honest and sometimes that backfires in my face. LOL. But I will keep looking up to the One who has the answers of why 2008 was so strange, unsettling and has thrown my life into what seems like a very directionless state. But I also know that just because I can't see the path, doesn't mean one is not there. I trust Him in the dark to lead me to the light. Maybe I will have more clarity in 2009, maybe not. But I can't say it hasn't been interesting. I've seen hard times, seen love gained, seen love..not lost-but move to Texas :( Seen true friends comfort me, seen superficial friends exposed. Seen the truth I guess. And I have found out recently that some people would rather not know the truth. I would, always. I face life as a realist. And I know that people are flawed, myself definitely included. I know that people will hurt me, even ones that love me, and I will hurt other people, even ones I love. That's just life sometimes, because we are human. But I can take whatever life throws at me as long as honesty is present. I can handle it, and I can love people no matter what they've done as long as they are honest. I have my big girl panties on and a brand new year to look forward to. Bring it on. :) I know, I know, you all are thinking of me in my big girl panties and my t-shirt that says, "If I were normal, you'd be bored", right? :) Yeah, that's a good look for me.