I used to write in here often but I haven't so much lately. Going back through some of my posts I realized I miss it. Yeah, miss sharing my life and intimate details with sometimes unknown strangers. LOL. Scary as it is, I find it ALMOST as therapeutic as baking. I also realized something else today. I think I am afraid of October. I had kind-of an odd weekend. You know how sometimes you just get this feeling of dread, like something bad is going to happen? Well I had one of those feelings this past weekend and couldn't really shake it. I tried to explain to my husband the best that I could but I didn't quite get it until this morning. And then it hit me...it's October. I am afraid of October. Why? As my husband pointed out, sometimes things "trigger" thoughts. It can happen with smells or sounds. For example, to this very day, when I smell White Rain hairspray, I hear "It's Tricky" by Run DMC - I DID mention I am an 80s girl, right? Anyway, just going through my life, I have had a lot of big changes happen in October. Not all bad, some - like getting to know my husband, and participating in Judgement House - were very positive. But others, negative or just "change my whole world" kind of changes. So with that in mind, I am trying to stay positive. I mean, things are going great for me. I am married to the most wonderful man in the world and our love is "love through imperfections" - which is a perfect kind of love, and my children are healthy and happy. So I just have to focus on the fact that if anything changes in October, it will be something positive. Hopefully we will make it to Halloween with the biggest conflict being 2 Hannah Montanas trying to trick or treat at the same time. The girls go through phases but Hannah seems to be dominating these days. Anyway, now that I've expressed my crazy fear of October, as I imagined...I feel much better getting it out there - into the unknown territory of...(eeek eeek eeek)...the internet....(insert Halloween evil laugh here)....
I wish you all a great October!
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