A few years later...

I miss my blog. It's been so long since I've written, and I miss spilling my guts into the great unknown. There's just some hint of freedom in doing so.

My little family is still chugging along. My daughters and stepson are growing up so fast. They have developed such strong personalities. It's amazing to see them blossoming into these little characters, full of spunk. I roll my eyes at it often, but I admit...deep down, I love it. One day I will miss the spontaneous (sassy) comments that make me giggle when they're not looking.

My husband is just as amazing as a man can be. He loves me deeply, and shows me that love every day. I am very blessed.

I'm not sure how often I will write, but I'd like to do better than I have the past couple of years. Maybe some good memories of the past every now and then, sprinkled with some new moments that I know will turn into good memories as time goes on.

Well, short but sweet. Gotta ease into this. Spilling of guts, though freeing, still needs a period of adjustment.

Cadence's GREAT Decision!!

On Friday, December 4th, my "almost" 6 year old, Cadence, accepted Christ! Her older sister has been a Christian for about a year and a half and we've talked about it a lot, but she just never had any interest of doing anything "right now". I never pushed her because each one of us has to come to that point when we are ready. We went shopping at Lifeway on Friday night and purchased a "Happy Birthday Jesus" packet to donate to a local hospital. In the car, Cadence was asking, "What can you possibly give Jesus?" So I told her the most important thing we can give Him is our life in asking Him to be our Lord and Savior. So after dinner with more discussion, she and I went into her room and we went through the bible and talked about what God gave, what Jesus went through so we could have salvation and what we need to do to accept it. She prayed the prayer and asked Jesus into her heart! I am SO BLESSED to know that both of my baby girls and my step-son have all accepted Christ and have security in eternal salvation! There is no greater joy!!! Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas!

Miss writing and scared of October

I used to write in here often but I haven't so much lately. Going back through some of my posts I realized I miss it. Yeah, miss sharing my life and intimate details with sometimes unknown strangers. LOL. Scary as it is, I find it ALMOST as therapeutic as baking. I also realized something else today. I think I am afraid of October. I had kind-of an odd weekend. You know how sometimes you just get this feeling of dread, like something bad is going to happen? Well I had one of those feelings this past weekend and couldn't really shake it. I tried to explain to my husband the best that I could but I didn't quite get it until this morning. And then it hit me...it's October. I am afraid of October. Why? As my husband pointed out, sometimes things "trigger" thoughts. It can happen with smells or sounds. For example, to this very day, when I smell White Rain hairspray, I hear "It's Tricky" by Run DMC - I DID mention I am an 80s girl, right? Anyway, just going through my life, I have had a lot of big changes happen in October. Not all bad, some - like getting to know my husband, and participating in Judgement House - were very positive. But others, negative or just "change my whole world" kind of changes. So with that in mind, I am trying to stay positive. I mean, things are going great for me. I am married to the most wonderful man in the world and our love is "love through imperfections" - which is a perfect kind of love, and my children are healthy and happy. So I just have to focus on the fact that if anything changes in October, it will be something positive. Hopefully we will make it to Halloween with the biggest conflict being 2 Hannah Montanas trying to trick or treat at the same time. The girls go through phases but Hannah seems to be dominating these days. Anyway, now that I've expressed my crazy fear of October, as I imagined...I feel much better getting it out there - into the unknown territory of...(eeek eeek eeek)...the internet....(insert Halloween evil laugh here)....

I wish you all a great October!